The days of horror are finally past ... I am free once again from the shackles of torture they call "midsems". The dreamy weekend has already begun , replete with all the bleary hours of interminable sleep and the equal - if not more - hours of sitting at the computer doing what you love best . Well , such days are pretty rare nowadays when you get time to think about your life and how things are , and also how you would have wanted them to be . When you come at such a crossroads in your life invariably you find that things are in many ways not to your liking . There are so many things that you would have done ... so many things that you would have done differently .... and some others you would not have done at all .
At such times one usually is filled with an inexplicable sadness , or maybe remorse - in a way - that some things that were in your control did not go the way you wanted them to go because of some hesitation in you - an inexplicable reluctance to follow your heart . On such occasions one usually blames his circumstances for the change of fortune , the events that happened around you are to blame for what happened to you ... Isn't that being a little escapist on your part ?? Aren't you deluding yourself into believing things that were in reality quite different ??? Or are you too afraid to recognise that you were responsible for what happened to your life ... you and no one else ...
I am no different . It is a fact that is really hard to accept , but now that I am on the threshold of entering into the big bad world of the corporate , I realise that there are moments in my life that I regret were not different .
Moments when if I had acted differently I might have been in a totally different place with totally different people ... moments when had I mustered up the courage and spoken to the girl that I had only watched and admired from afar maybe she would have been with me and not with someone else .
I only hope for your sake that the same is not true for you , because there can be no pain that is more than the pain of realising that you are at fault . You are responsible for what is happening and what has happened to your life .
Life gives you a lot of chances , a lot of opportunities . If you didn't take them you know whom to blame.
4 comments:
Reading your blog reminded me of "To be or not to be".Wonder how many crossroads we'll have to face in our lives...I just hope that u do not have to face a female at a crossroad again.. ;-)
Reflective and highly philosophical.
I do agree with you that many-a-times we make decisions which if made differently might have resulted in a complete overhaul of our lives, but I also feel that somehow, whatever happens does happen for good.
One such decision is made when you fill up the choice sheet during your JEE counselling. A slightly different order would have meant a different world, a very clique of friends, a different existence. But are you unhappy with what you had filled? Most of us are not.
The point is that it is more important to adjust with your surroundings, accept your fate and do the best you can instead of spending your waking hours cribbing about how things should have been different.
thanx guys for ur comments ...
of course the perspective of each individual is different ... i thought this way ... no reason you should so too ...
keep commenting ;)
"I can only show the door , it is you who has to walk through it and find out for yourself "
all decisions made are answerable to oneself only. so there is no need to repent on what you have done, just improve on it .
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